D-Day - 22 June 2008

Reality is always something we need to face daily. But sometimes we wish it could somehow be delayed or pretend not to know.

Yesterday finally the news was broken to the whole cg. I think David was rather stressed up about the announcement, not talking much, just eating his bowl of abalone kolo mee. Probably thinking about how to announce it. I'm eating and enjoying the last moment of tspt cg together.

After some time, david spoke. There was silence following a little commotion of "huh??" I dare not look up or at the faces of everyone as david went on to explain the changes. I was wondering how would the cg respond be at such a sudden news. Then i took a little peep around, abi picking on her coconut (thinking about sthg?), joanne listening and deep in thoughts also, yuhui was blocked by joyce, i cant see joyce cos my head is frozen at a position. Justin and Ellson listening intendly i think. Tears were welling in my eyes.. i continued to look down.

I think our cg has come a long way, tho it's a short one year together. The fellowship has grown deeper over the months especially after our malacca trip and planning and preparing for services together. The trip to adults camp had even deepen our convictions, love and commitment to one another further. Tho we all know that we will part sooner or later at the end of the year, but no one expected it, or at least i dun expect it to come so soon.

There is always sadness during parting, however the deeper the sadness shows the depth of love we have for one another. It's a good sadness. =)

Even as i'm reluctant to leave this cg, i know i need to fulfill God's calling to build His Kingdom. It's a privilege to serve God this way and an opportunity for me to grow. I'm excited over this calling. Frankly I do miss pastoral ministry also. Seeing the pple who will be in my cg, there will be familiar faces.. seems like God is suggesting that i have unfinished work left behind in the past when i'm still in uni. This morning as i'm walking to work, I feel as if I'm peter. Peter is such an emotional, rash and phlegmatic (correct me if i'm wrong) person also. Jesus asked him 3 times "do you love me" and said "feed my sheep". I thought Jesus is asking me the same question too.. "yes I will. Lead me..."

TSPT jia you. I will rem my covenant with you.

YP here i come!