Block Leave...
Good:
a. Finally a long break i'm always looking forward to. Really needed the rest alot alot alot.
b. To catch up with my friends
c. To catch up with my ministry planning
d. To pack my super super messed up room
e. For re-collection of the events in this whole year and set my new year resolutions
f. Holiday with my family. For the first time in 26 years (yes, my 26th year is ending soon.. *hint*) i'm going on a holiday with my whole family. I'm really looking forward to this. We are going to Hong Kong and visiting Disneyland there. Papa, mama, ling, hui, zhen, keane, jaden.. ^^
g. Christmas is here! My favorite festival after CNY!
Bad:
a. Work will pile up over the next two weeks
b. To mitigate the piling of work, we are rushing like mad to complete our reports and costing before 23rd comes.
c. We are in the mercy of other consultants and contractor, so even when we wanna rush our work, we need the coorperation of these pple... but not everyone is coorperative. (they dun owe it to us anyway)
d. I will start my 2009 with a deficit of -1.5 days of leave. BECAUSE I DUN HAVE ENOUGH LEAVE LEFT FOR THE BLOCK LEAVE!!! T_T
e. My boss is expecting me to cancel my leave to come back to work!!! YES! She hinted so many times already... sigh... Y??? Should I?? Cos if i cant back, my leave can be reinstated to me... but I need the break badly..
So is it a blessing to have block leave?? what do you think? Another one coming up during the CNY, however that will be a shorter one.. only 2 days more added to the 2 public holidays.
I'm seriously very stressed and tired recently.. spiritually dry, physically worn out, mentally bored down by some issues.. hmm...
I'm keeping my eyes fixed on God, for He has began a good work in me and He will carry it on to completion. Jesus, I need your daily sustainance and joy in my heart. Help me to make sense of all these that are happening.
*though i walk through valley low, i will fear no evil*
Friday, December 19, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
The Singapore Marathon 2008
Last weekend was the Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon. 7th year in its running. I had particiapated in it for 3 times. First time in 2005, ran the half marathon; 2nd time in 2006, ran the full marathon; and again this year (last sunday), ran the half marathon again.
It was quite siong, with absolutely no training at all. When i ran, i still have the mud that was left on my shoes since the Army Half Marathon in August earlier this year. I must be crazy.
As usual, some of us gathered to pray and start off (late) together. We ran, walk, jog, and joke along the way. There were ZZ, Jes, Carrie, Ven, Junyao, Jo, Yizhong, Minchen, weiling, Tingqiang, me (hope i din missed out anyone in the group. ) Our first stop wasnt the water point, it was the TOILET! less than a KM from our start point! hahaha.. going to toilet has never been so happening before!
Later we broke off in our run.
I broke off after the 8km mark. I tried to enjoy the jog together with God. Wanted to make the time more fruitful, i started to pray in the spirit to get my focus with God. I took the time to pray for a few pple in my CG. It was good. It takes my mind away from the lactic acid that is building up in my body and i felt refreshed in the spirit as well.
I finished the run in the end, with cramps and pain, but it was good. Tho i'm tired, and dead tired after that.
We went back to the gathering point and took several photos. Initially wanted to wait for the full marathon runners to be back and have lunch together. but the heat of the noon day sun is starting to get a little unbearable. Sorry guys, dun mean to pang sei you. But we tried our best to cheer u guys man.. hahah.. rem our dian hua nian xiang? haha
hmm... there are a few things i dun like about this year's run. It's too boring. There isnt much cheering along the way, road marshalls are sleeping!!! (YES ! I SAW THEM SITTING DOWN AND SLEEP WITH THEIR FLAGS! ) My goodness! Are you soooo tired?? why come and do road marshalling?? dun understand. Another thing is that, there is too many turnings in the run, the route is too boring. I tot we would run across the marina barrage! it'll be exciting to go on top of it and against the wide open sea, in the cool of the morning! but nope... we are on the boring nicoll highway, instead, turning and turning. I wonder is my $55 bucks worth it at all. The goodie bag is terrible. Only a few sheets of discount vouchers for places we dun normally go to, two running booklet for instructions, and our bid tag and champion chip. THAT IS ALL! *faint* Is economy that bad? yeah i agree it was and still is and will be BAD for at least the next 1 to 1.5 years if the market picks up. BUT we signed up and paid for the run way before the credit crunch set in! sigh... one word, disappointed.
okay enough of complaining. Thank God for this spiritual family that we can run and fellowship together. I have left the uni grp for some time, and it was a familiar feeling to be jogging with the bro and sis in uni. This is what i look forward for and i had gotten what i desire. Dear Father, thank you for this family.
=)
*i will look for photos and post them up*
It was quite siong, with absolutely no training at all. When i ran, i still have the mud that was left on my shoes since the Army Half Marathon in August earlier this year. I must be crazy.
As usual, some of us gathered to pray and start off (late) together. We ran, walk, jog, and joke along the way. There were ZZ, Jes, Carrie, Ven, Junyao, Jo, Yizhong, Minchen, weiling, Tingqiang, me (hope i din missed out anyone in the group. ) Our first stop wasnt the water point, it was the TOILET! less than a KM from our start point! hahaha.. going to toilet has never been so happening before!
Later we broke off in our run.
I broke off after the 8km mark. I tried to enjoy the jog together with God. Wanted to make the time more fruitful, i started to pray in the spirit to get my focus with God. I took the time to pray for a few pple in my CG. It was good. It takes my mind away from the lactic acid that is building up in my body and i felt refreshed in the spirit as well.
I finished the run in the end, with cramps and pain, but it was good. Tho i'm tired, and dead tired after that.
We went back to the gathering point and took several photos. Initially wanted to wait for the full marathon runners to be back and have lunch together. but the heat of the noon day sun is starting to get a little unbearable. Sorry guys, dun mean to pang sei you. But we tried our best to cheer u guys man.. hahah.. rem our dian hua nian xiang? haha
hmm... there are a few things i dun like about this year's run. It's too boring. There isnt much cheering along the way, road marshalls are sleeping!!! (YES ! I SAW THEM SITTING DOWN AND SLEEP WITH THEIR FLAGS! ) My goodness! Are you soooo tired?? why come and do road marshalling?? dun understand. Another thing is that, there is too many turnings in the run, the route is too boring. I tot we would run across the marina barrage! it'll be exciting to go on top of it and against the wide open sea, in the cool of the morning! but nope... we are on the boring nicoll highway, instead, turning and turning. I wonder is my $55 bucks worth it at all. The goodie bag is terrible. Only a few sheets of discount vouchers for places we dun normally go to, two running booklet for instructions, and our bid tag and champion chip. THAT IS ALL! *faint* Is economy that bad? yeah i agree it was and still is and will be BAD for at least the next 1 to 1.5 years if the market picks up. BUT we signed up and paid for the run way before the credit crunch set in! sigh... one word, disappointed.
okay enough of complaining. Thank God for this spiritual family that we can run and fellowship together. I have left the uni grp for some time, and it was a familiar feeling to be jogging with the bro and sis in uni. This is what i look forward for and i had gotten what i desire. Dear Father, thank you for this family.
=)
*i will look for photos and post them up*
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
Sunday, July 6, 2008
I'm so tired these few days... so tired at work that I can't work at all. Lotsa deadlines next week. sigh..
Even though i'm feeling tired, I thank God that whenever I need to serve Him, the strength just comes. Whenever I need to meet pple, my sheep, cg, HUP team, etc, strength just came. I know it can only be from God.
Sat morning I went for a late night jog at 2am after meeting the HUP team at Xin Wang Hongkong Cafe @ Kovan. Btw the meeting was goooood! I think the HUP team has a great vision to influence and impact lives through using IT to create a seamless communication platform. Nic, Stanley and Hongyao jia you! Coming back to the jog, it was a nice jog. Knowing that late night jogging is bad for health as it disturb the body from resting, I jog very slowly. Just wanna enjoy the cool of the night, and drain out my thoughts. I like jogging... I havent jog for soo long. I missed it. I really wanna get back my health. My health has deteriorated so much. (today the hairdresser commented that i looked more tired than the previous time she cut my hair). In the past I would jog 2 to 3 times per week. My maximum mileage was 20++ km per week. Now i'm skinny and weak. My knees seems to be giving me problems also. It's hurting much more recently...
Am I getting old? I dun want... I like to be youthful, not just look youthful which can be a problem.. i want to be youthful and mature. Settled and reliable. I want to join marathons, swim, looking pink with health. I have dreams which I hope to pursue. I dun want to be sickly and dull as this is not the life God has for me.
Even though i'm feeling tired, I thank God that whenever I need to serve Him, the strength just comes. Whenever I need to meet pple, my sheep, cg, HUP team, etc, strength just came. I know it can only be from God.
Sat morning I went for a late night jog at 2am after meeting the HUP team at Xin Wang Hongkong Cafe @ Kovan. Btw the meeting was goooood! I think the HUP team has a great vision to influence and impact lives through using IT to create a seamless communication platform. Nic, Stanley and Hongyao jia you! Coming back to the jog, it was a nice jog. Knowing that late night jogging is bad for health as it disturb the body from resting, I jog very slowly. Just wanna enjoy the cool of the night, and drain out my thoughts. I like jogging... I havent jog for soo long. I missed it. I really wanna get back my health. My health has deteriorated so much. (today the hairdresser commented that i looked more tired than the previous time she cut my hair). In the past I would jog 2 to 3 times per week. My maximum mileage was 20++ km per week. Now i'm skinny and weak. My knees seems to be giving me problems also. It's hurting much more recently...
Am I getting old? I dun want... I like to be youthful, not just look youthful which can be a problem.. i want to be youthful and mature. Settled and reliable. I want to join marathons, swim, looking pink with health. I have dreams which I hope to pursue. I dun want to be sickly and dull as this is not the life God has for me.
*drained*
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
MY CRAZY TSPT CG!
The Team That Honors God
- Abby aka Hot Babe -
- Janny aka KeNan -
- DVD -
- Juz Do it! -
- Princess -
- B.Engz -
- Princess Fiona aka Theodore aka Chilipadi -
- Princess-in-the-Making aka Icy Queen -
- Sugar Mummy -
*missed ya*
Monday, June 30, 2008
This afternoon after my site evaluation, I took a cab to Tecman before heading back to office since it's already 5pm. I spent an hour there browsing through the shelves for books and cds and cards. These are what I bought:
Hillsong "Savour King". I really like the songs inside this compilation. Decided not to be a pirate, so I bought it! lol!
I have been eyeing at this book for some time. It was first introduced by a sis in the intercessory team during one meeting.
Hillsong "Savour King". I really like the songs inside this compilation. Decided not to be a pirate, so I bought it! lol!
This is for the coming CG. I have never bought so many cards at one go (105 altogether!). It's selling at $1 for 15 cards. cheap cheap... Dun ask me why I bought them, secret! When I'm taking them off the shelf, there are pple around me looking... probably wondering this guy is so kiasu? greedy? hahaha.. so paiseh.
Finally, my Tecman membership card. hmm... pls borrow from me if u need to shop at Tecman. I bought it to enjoy it's anniversary storewide discount (up to 40% off!!! ) but today it's the last day. LOL!
And finally finally... I'm back to my office.. to slog again... sigh...
Check out my messy table... :(
hmm.. just remembered that I'm representing my company to attend SAF Day Ceremony at Temasek Polytechnic tmr at 945am! oh man... I'm done for it this time.. hope they dun catch my long hair... sianz.. Should have rejected when the HR dept ask me if I can attend. :(((
okay... time to go home.. byebye...
*Yawn~*
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Another Weekend!
Oh yeah... i always looked forward to Friday nights! A time i set aside for myself to meet pple, spend time with family, spend time alone, anything except work! haha..
I got my payslip today and you know what?? I got pay increment! woohooo~~ After calculating it's about 11% of my basic pay. 2nd pay revision since January. Wow... now i felt much better knowing that my other friends in other companies are fetching around the same.. but of cos they have it without the crazy OT i have. Nevermind i still thank God for the incentives~! yeah... now i can save up more, increase my installment for my study loan and bless more pple~ ^^
Oh yah! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dun watch "zohan"... It's brainless and funny.. but BUT has got alot alot of obscenity! I was blocking my eyes with the strap of my bag... oh man...
that said, i still got a good laugh. Stupid film, take it with a pinch of salt... *shrug*
Tomorrow I'm having my driving final theory test. I din study that book at all.. think i'm gonna fail for sure. crap... Where did my motivation for driving gone to? I was so excited and planned to get my license in 6 mths.. now gotta postponed my plan.. so crappy. And if my Operation Manning is gonna be activated tmr.. it's gonna kill my day~! God, please dun let it happen...
*very tired*
I got my payslip today and you know what?? I got pay increment! woohooo~~ After calculating it's about 11% of my basic pay. 2nd pay revision since January. Wow... now i felt much better knowing that my other friends in other companies are fetching around the same.. but of cos they have it without the crazy OT i have. Nevermind i still thank God for the incentives~! yeah... now i can save up more, increase my installment for my study loan and bless more pple~ ^^
Oh yah! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dun watch "zohan"... It's brainless and funny.. but BUT has got alot alot of obscenity! I was blocking my eyes with the strap of my bag... oh man...
that said, i still got a good laugh. Stupid film, take it with a pinch of salt... *shrug*
Tomorrow I'm having my driving final theory test. I din study that book at all.. think i'm gonna fail for sure. crap... Where did my motivation for driving gone to? I was so excited and planned to get my license in 6 mths.. now gotta postponed my plan.. so crappy. And if my Operation Manning is gonna be activated tmr.. it's gonna kill my day~! God, please dun let it happen...
*very tired*
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
D-Day - 22 June 2008
Reality is always something we need to face daily. But sometimes we wish it could somehow be delayed or pretend not to know.
Yesterday finally the news was broken to the whole cg. I think David was rather stressed up about the announcement, not talking much, just eating his bowl of abalone kolo mee. Probably thinking about how to announce it. I'm eating and enjoying the last moment of tspt cg together.
After some time, david spoke. There was silence following a little commotion of "huh??" I dare not look up or at the faces of everyone as david went on to explain the changes. I was wondering how would the cg respond be at such a sudden news. Then i took a little peep around, abi picking on her coconut (thinking about sthg?), joanne listening and deep in thoughts also, yuhui was blocked by joyce, i cant see joyce cos my head is frozen at a position. Justin and Ellson listening intendly i think. Tears were welling in my eyes.. i continued to look down.
I think our cg has come a long way, tho it's a short one year together. The fellowship has grown deeper over the months especially after our malacca trip and planning and preparing for services together. The trip to adults camp had even deepen our convictions, love and commitment to one another further. Tho we all know that we will part sooner or later at the end of the year, but no one expected it, or at least i dun expect it to come so soon.
There is always sadness during parting, however the deeper the sadness shows the depth of love we have for one another. It's a good sadness. =)
Even as i'm reluctant to leave this cg, i know i need to fulfill God's calling to build His Kingdom. It's a privilege to serve God this way and an opportunity for me to grow. I'm excited over this calling. Frankly I do miss pastoral ministry also. Seeing the pple who will be in my cg, there will be familiar faces.. seems like God is suggesting that i have unfinished work left behind in the past when i'm still in uni. This morning as i'm walking to work, I feel as if I'm peter. Peter is such an emotional, rash and phlegmatic (correct me if i'm wrong) person also. Jesus asked him 3 times "do you love me" and said "feed my sheep". I thought Jesus is asking me the same question too.. "yes I will. Lead me..."
TSPT jia you. I will rem my covenant with you.
YP here i come!
Yesterday finally the news was broken to the whole cg. I think David was rather stressed up about the announcement, not talking much, just eating his bowl of abalone kolo mee. Probably thinking about how to announce it. I'm eating and enjoying the last moment of tspt cg together.
After some time, david spoke. There was silence following a little commotion of "huh??" I dare not look up or at the faces of everyone as david went on to explain the changes. I was wondering how would the cg respond be at such a sudden news. Then i took a little peep around, abi picking on her coconut (thinking about sthg?), joanne listening and deep in thoughts also, yuhui was blocked by joyce, i cant see joyce cos my head is frozen at a position. Justin and Ellson listening intendly i think. Tears were welling in my eyes.. i continued to look down.
I think our cg has come a long way, tho it's a short one year together. The fellowship has grown deeper over the months especially after our malacca trip and planning and preparing for services together. The trip to adults camp had even deepen our convictions, love and commitment to one another further. Tho we all know that we will part sooner or later at the end of the year, but no one expected it, or at least i dun expect it to come so soon.
There is always sadness during parting, however the deeper the sadness shows the depth of love we have for one another. It's a good sadness. =)
Even as i'm reluctant to leave this cg, i know i need to fulfill God's calling to build His Kingdom. It's a privilege to serve God this way and an opportunity for me to grow. I'm excited over this calling. Frankly I do miss pastoral ministry also. Seeing the pple who will be in my cg, there will be familiar faces.. seems like God is suggesting that i have unfinished work left behind in the past when i'm still in uni. This morning as i'm walking to work, I feel as if I'm peter. Peter is such an emotional, rash and phlegmatic (correct me if i'm wrong) person also. Jesus asked him 3 times "do you love me" and said "feed my sheep". I thought Jesus is asking me the same question too.. "yes I will. Lead me..."
TSPT jia you. I will rem my covenant with you.
YP here i come!
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Overwhelmed!
You Are Faithful
Thought of all the years
How you cared for me
You have made me
You who saves and carried me always
You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful
Your joy is my strength
Lord You are my guide
I rely on You
I put my hope in things not seen
Your promises are true
You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful
Your joy is my strength
Always you're with me
Your hand will lead me
My trust is in Your Name
You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful
Your joy is my strength
Adults Camp ended two weeks ago. Many things have happened during and after the camp. It's really an ACTSperience God Camp. My experiences with God during the camp are so tangible that i can't help but say that "GOD I LOVE YOU!". For very long, I have never hunger for God so so much. I feel as if my heart has been re-newed, my spirit man is revived and I'm alive again!
My life seems to have taken a 180 degrees turn-a-bout with many challenges awaiting for me. My path ahead will not be easy and i thank God that He will be there to walk together with me. Looking back, God, thank you for the journey in the past 8 years. Despite of my unfaithfulness and repeated mistakes, you have never given up on me. If not for your grace, I won't be who I am today. We will continue to walk together till I meet you face to face together with my loved ones. My heart is filled with so much gratitude towards you. This song speaks of my heart... this is for you God..
Love,
Jan
Thought of all the years
How you cared for me
You have made me
You who saves and carried me always
You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful
Your joy is my strength
Lord You are my guide
I rely on You
I put my hope in things not seen
Your promises are true
You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful
Your joy is my strength
Always you're with me
Your hand will lead me
My trust is in Your Name
You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful
Your joy is my strength
Adults Camp ended two weeks ago. Many things have happened during and after the camp. It's really an ACTSperience God Camp. My experiences with God during the camp are so tangible that i can't help but say that "GOD I LOVE YOU!". For very long, I have never hunger for God so so much. I feel as if my heart has been re-newed, my spirit man is revived and I'm alive again!
My life seems to have taken a 180 degrees turn-a-bout with many challenges awaiting for me. My path ahead will not be easy and i thank God that He will be there to walk together with me. Looking back, God, thank you for the journey in the past 8 years. Despite of my unfaithfulness and repeated mistakes, you have never given up on me. If not for your grace, I won't be who I am today. We will continue to walk together till I meet you face to face together with my loved ones. My heart is filled with so much gratitude towards you. This song speaks of my heart... this is for you God..
Love,
Jan
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